so some of you might know that i have been on hiatus both in this blog & spiritually . but i think im coming back so :D . i think i should share just a bit about that gap with God that i encountered earlier . Alot of things happened in the span on one weekend & it was really overwhelming . so i find myself being his by a tsunami & all of a sudden my spiritual walk is also totally washed away . after that i re-developed some bad habits i had stopped before & etc . but i realize these few weeks when i was deliberatly shutting out God, my life has been more lonely & dark than i expected . its really difficult trying to stay standing when you're shutting out God , so that Hese not there to lean on & support . But i think after Dido this week im coming back to my senses , already i feel more comfortable .

I want to thank Enoch Tang for taking the time to converse with me before Dido . I was just casually telling him how i was a bit stressed over school & such , with the future , iono the regular stress factors . and he just KEPT telling me "oh you know none of that matters". & at first i think i was a bit taken back ... kinda thinking "whoa how can school NOT matter !?" but whilst thinking on the car ride home i realized that , really none of this matters . of course i should be trying my best in all aspects of life but really when i spend time looking at the homework laid out infront of me , my head is already too low to look up & see the bigger picture . & then the Dido perf. Our group actually got chosing univs. THAT also brought some insight into my life .

so all in all , my mentality is slowly changing bit by bit & going back to how i should be .

mmm i think id like to just drop some lyrics to share .

zara will love this LOL

We say good-bye
I turn my back
Run away, run away
So predictable
Not far from here
You see me crack
Like a bone, like a bone
I'm so breakable

And I take everything from you
But you'll take anything
Won't you?

Run away, run away
Like a prodigal
Don't you wait for me
Don't you wait for me
So ashamed, so ashamed
But I need you so
And you wait for me
And you wait for me

I'm on the road
To who knows where?
Look ahead, not behind
I keep saying
There's no place to go
Where you're not there
On your rope, I hold tight
But it's freeing

And I take everything from you
But you'll take anything
Won't you?

Run away, run away
Like a prodigal
Don't you wait for me
Don't you wait for me
So ashamed, so ashamed
But I need you so
And you wait for me
And you wait for me

Everybody wants to be right
But only if it's not day light?
I keep trying to find my way back
My way back

Run away, run away
Like a prodigal
Don't you wait for me
Don't you wait for me
So ashamed, so ashamed
But I need you so
And you wait for me
And you wait for me