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song playing:say all I need – one republic
Do you know where your heart is?
Do you think you can find it?
Or did you trade it for something
Somewhere better just to have it?
Do you know where your love is?
Do you think that you lost it?
You felt it so strong, but
Nothing's turned out how you wanted
Well, bless my soul
You're a lonely soul
Cause you won't let go
Of anything you hold
Well, all I need
Is the air I breathe
And a place to rest
My head
Do you know what your fate is?
And are you trying to shake it?
You're doing your best and
Your best look
You're praying that you make it
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Tuesday, May 12, 2009
is God telling me to go to Brescia or is that just my wishful thinking : /
Sunday, May 10, 2009
dear me dear me ) :
ive been falling behind in devos again !
i really need to work on putting God first .
first first first
before school , sleep , etc .
ANYWAYS . my mainpoint of blogging
is to send out a prayer request :
i got accepted into my first and third choice
1) western food&nutrition @ brescia
2) loo life sci
the statistical issue is that everyone is going to waterloo . i am going to be a loner at western . : ( however it can be a good and bad thing , and if this proves to be a better program i wouldnt mind going in not knowing anyone . western seems to be more tailored towards what i want to learn , as opposed to life sci .
the NONstatistical issue is that i really dont knwo where God wants me to go .
my other acceptances are UOIT life sci and Ottawa =_= ... human kinetics O_o . ive been praying for God to make it completely obvious to me . but im not .. sure .. im getting an answer .
when i get my answer however , i dont know how im going to take it too . im trying to rid of my biasness towards western , so that if He calls me to go somewhere else that i will be willing to go , even if its in Ottawa T__T .
that is all : ) have a booombbb week guys !
ive been falling behind in devos again !
i really need to work on putting God first .
first first first
before school , sleep , etc .
ANYWAYS . my mainpoint of blogging
is to send out a prayer request :
i got accepted into my first and third choice
1) western food&nutrition @ brescia
2) loo life sci
the statistical issue is that everyone is going to waterloo . i am going to be a loner at western . : ( however it can be a good and bad thing , and if this proves to be a better program i wouldnt mind going in not knowing anyone . western seems to be more tailored towards what i want to learn , as opposed to life sci .
the NONstatistical issue is that i really dont knwo where God wants me to go .
my other acceptances are UOIT life sci and Ottawa =_= ... human kinetics O_o . ive been praying for God to make it completely obvious to me . but im not .. sure .. im getting an answer .
when i get my answer however , i dont know how im going to take it too . im trying to rid of my biasness towards western , so that if He calls me to go somewhere else that i will be willing to go , even if its in Ottawa T__T .
that is all : ) have a booombbb week guys !
Saturday, May 2, 2009
YES DONE PROM DRESS SHOPPING :D
so on my way in my little browsing in downtown , i came across this quaint little shop in ... okay i have no idea where . i suck with directions ): ..
anyways .
my first impression as i opened the door, was that
1) it smelled amazing
2) reminded me of a dollar store .
bits of everything were on sale . so i kind if wanted to walk out .
but around fifteen minutes in , after walking the whole shop ,
i realize how super omazing the stuff is
its not mainstream , definitely not .
there were candles, little booklets of things , huge bars of something something soap
collections, iron mice , etc .
what surprised me the most was that i found it interesting , and i loved alot of the stuff inside.
i kind of realized how much i was sucked into ... hmm .. worldly things at that point .
my reasoning is kind of weird so this may not make much sense .
because the stuff in the shop wasnt mainstream , i was surprised that really enjoyed my time inside .
which made me reflect my past interests for 2009 .
how mainstream and worldly they were : /
clothes , job , school , etc - how much they blocked God from my eyesight .
YUP . that was my reminder of the day .
and also i cant help but see people walk past me and think how lost they are : /
not too long ago i might as well have been in their position . and it really hurt . i was really lost .
so these people are just living their lives hurting and ... not even knowing it .
what am i going to do about that !?
ohyeah & bible study on friday was pretty bomb : )
unwholeness LOL . ^__^ yup .
that is all for my update . tata .
(ohyeah theres a REAALLLYY bomb 'all organic' cafe downtown called .. i forgot what . but if you happen to see a little cafe - inside is all bricks w/ alot of art on the wall - they help artists sell their work - then walk in ! amazing coffee amazing hot chocolate - omazing food)
so on my way in my little browsing in downtown , i came across this quaint little shop in ... okay i have no idea where . i suck with directions ): ..
anyways .
my first impression as i opened the door, was that
1) it smelled amazing
2) reminded me of a dollar store .
bits of everything were on sale . so i kind if wanted to walk out .
but around fifteen minutes in , after walking the whole shop ,
i realize how super omazing the stuff is
its not mainstream , definitely not .
there were candles, little booklets of things , huge bars of something something soap
collections, iron mice , etc .
what surprised me the most was that i found it interesting , and i loved alot of the stuff inside.
i kind of realized how much i was sucked into ... hmm .. worldly things at that point .
my reasoning is kind of weird so this may not make much sense .
because the stuff in the shop wasnt mainstream , i was surprised that really enjoyed my time inside .
which made me reflect my past interests for 2009 .
how mainstream and worldly they were : /
clothes , job , school , etc - how much they blocked God from my eyesight .
YUP . that was my reminder of the day .
and also i cant help but see people walk past me and think how lost they are : /
not too long ago i might as well have been in their position . and it really hurt . i was really lost .
so these people are just living their lives hurting and ... not even knowing it .
what am i going to do about that !?
ohyeah & bible study on friday was pretty bomb : )
unwholeness LOL . ^__^ yup .
that is all for my update . tata .
(ohyeah theres a REAALLLYY bomb 'all organic' cafe downtown called .. i forgot what . but if you happen to see a little cafe - inside is all bricks w/ alot of art on the wall - they help artists sell their work - then walk in ! amazing coffee amazing hot chocolate - omazing food)
Monday, April 27, 2009
ABLUKASDJFKSJDFH !!! IM BACK : D
after pdp i feel God really spoke to me ,
and although before i totally noticed how hurt & desperately i needed God,
i just never happened , as in ... my apathy for my situation would not move .
pdp was a great wakeup call though
i really began to see the disgust in some of the things i do .
so i set up little reminders to remind myself of who i really need to become and to rid some dirty habits i picked up this year during my 'leave' from God .
my first mission is to kill my swearing .
i admit i have developed a really nasty habit of swearing that i developed december-ish
so that needs to leave .
ive also been judging people . which is ridiculous .
i must stop that too .
yup im just going to keep this short b/c i have a fat pile of homework to do la
blupblup .
after pdp i feel God really spoke to me ,
and although before i totally noticed how hurt & desperately i needed God,
i just never happened , as in ... my apathy for my situation would not move .
pdp was a great wakeup call though
i really began to see the disgust in some of the things i do .
so i set up little reminders to remind myself of who i really need to become and to rid some dirty habits i picked up this year during my 'leave' from God .
my first mission is to kill my swearing .
i admit i have developed a really nasty habit of swearing that i developed december-ish
so that needs to leave .
ive also been judging people . which is ridiculous .
i must stop that too .
yup im just going to keep this short b/c i have a fat pile of homework to do la
blupblup .
Monday, November 3, 2008
lately ive been standing on thin faith ,
little discipline & a really bleak life .
& to tell the truth , it is so exhausting .
i swear everyday i wake up ,
and the first thought is school
and stress , the things i have to do ,
the things ive already done .
so stupid . how insignificant .
i really need to ty pauline : )
for giving me a hundred & one cups of water .
to be completely reliant & selfless feels .
amazing .
ive been listening to carrie underwood's 'so small' again .
this song gets me every time .
i am so focused on the little things ,
i stress myself so much ,
but flipping that book , listning to this song
realizing things i knew but brushed off ,
makes me feel so light & unburdened .
its amazing . really .
"After the last scene of my life flashed before me, I looked back at the footprints in the sand. I noticed that at many times along the path of my life, especially at the very lowest and saddest times, there was only one set of footprints.
This really troubled me, so I asked the Lord about it. “Lord, you said once I decided to follow you, You’d walk with me all the way. But I noticed that during the saddest and most troublesome times of my life, there was only one set of footprints. I don’t understand why, when I needed You the most, You would leave me.”
The Lord replied, “My son, my precious child, I love you and I would never leave you. During your times of suffering, when you could see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you.”
&&&
What you got if you ain't got love
the kind that you just want to give away
It's okay to open up
go ahead and let the light shine through
I know it's hard on a rainy day
you want to shut the world out and just be left alone
But don't run out on your faith
'Cause sometimes that mountain you've been climbing is just a grain of sand
What you've been up there searching for
forever is in your hands
When you figure out love is all that matters after all
It sure makes everything else
seem so small
It's so easy to get lost inside
a problem that seems so big at the time
it's like a river thats so wide
it swallows you whole
While you sit around thinking about what you can't change
and worrying about all the wrong things
time's flying by
moving so fast
you better make it count 'cause you can't get it back
Sometimes that mountain you've been climbing is just a grain of sand
What you've been up there searching for
forever is in your hands
When you figure out love is all that matters after all
It sure makes everything else
Seem so small
Sometimes that mountain you've been climbing is just a grain of sand
What you've been up there searching for
forever is in your hands
When you figure out love is all that matters after all
It sure makes everything else
Oh it sure makes everything else
Seem so small
little discipline & a really bleak life .
& to tell the truth , it is so exhausting .
i swear everyday i wake up ,
and the first thought is school
and stress , the things i have to do ,
the things ive already done .
so stupid . how insignificant .
i really need to ty pauline : )
for giving me a hundred & one cups of water .
to be completely reliant & selfless feels .
amazing .
ive been listening to carrie underwood's 'so small' again .
this song gets me every time .
i am so focused on the little things ,
i stress myself so much ,
but flipping that book , listning to this song
realizing things i knew but brushed off ,
makes me feel so light & unburdened .
its amazing . really .
"After the last scene of my life flashed before me, I looked back at the footprints in the sand. I noticed that at many times along the path of my life, especially at the very lowest and saddest times, there was only one set of footprints.
This really troubled me, so I asked the Lord about it. “Lord, you said once I decided to follow you, You’d walk with me all the way. But I noticed that during the saddest and most troublesome times of my life, there was only one set of footprints. I don’t understand why, when I needed You the most, You would leave me.”
The Lord replied, “My son, my precious child, I love you and I would never leave you. During your times of suffering, when you could see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you.”
&&&
What you got if you ain't got love
the kind that you just want to give away
It's okay to open up
go ahead and let the light shine through
I know it's hard on a rainy day
you want to shut the world out and just be left alone
But don't run out on your faith
'Cause sometimes that mountain you've been climbing is just a grain of sand
What you've been up there searching for
forever is in your hands
When you figure out love is all that matters after all
It sure makes everything else
seem so small
It's so easy to get lost inside
a problem that seems so big at the time
it's like a river thats so wide
it swallows you whole
While you sit around thinking about what you can't change
and worrying about all the wrong things
time's flying by
moving so fast
you better make it count 'cause you can't get it back
Sometimes that mountain you've been climbing is just a grain of sand
What you've been up there searching for
forever is in your hands
When you figure out love is all that matters after all
It sure makes everything else
Seem so small
Sometimes that mountain you've been climbing is just a grain of sand
What you've been up there searching for
forever is in your hands
When you figure out love is all that matters after all
It sure makes everything else
Oh it sure makes everything else
Seem so small
Sunday, October 26, 2008
reverting too quickly to before i met God .
where am i going why am i falling .
i could say i feel almost ice-like
but even ice is breakable .
inside i know im more dead than alive .
i dont know .
it feels like it doesnt matter anymore .
the people who im with @ church ,
my reason for BEING at church
praying at home , let alone outside
iono everything feels so distant .
and i dont even know if im up to fix it .
where am i going why am i falling .
i could say i feel almost ice-like
but even ice is breakable .
inside i know im more dead than alive .
i dont know .
it feels like it doesnt matter anymore .
the people who im with @ church ,
my reason for BEING at church
praying at home , let alone outside
iono everything feels so distant .
and i dont even know if im up to fix it .
Monday, October 6, 2008
im not sure if many of you are aware about this , my daddy fwded this email to me a few days ago . today he sent me another one following & i thought that i should share .
"Urgent prayer request. pls pray for the churches in India. Hindu extremists burnt 20 churches yest night & are planning to destroy other 200 churches in orissa tonite. BJP also planned to kill 200 pastors in the next 24 hrs. All christians are hiding in bushes. Pls pray & fwd 2 all intercessors u know so we can cry to God on their behalf. Pst Steve, Dubai" - was the email .
today i received this :
um yeah ... guys .... pray .
"Urgent prayer request. pls pray for the churches in India. Hindu extremists burnt 20 churches yest night & are planning to destroy other 200 churches in orissa tonite. BJP also planned to kill 200 pastors in the next 24 hrs. All christians are hiding in bushes. Pls pray & fwd 2 all intercessors u know so we can cry to God on their behalf. Pst Steve, Dubai" - was the email .
today i received this :
um yeah ... guys .... pray .